Something that I don't share with too many people is that when I was 15 I was diagnosed with endometriosis. It's a disease that grows tissue where it's not supposed to. One of the main risks of endometriosis is infertility. In fact over 50% of women who have endometriosis have a very hard time getting pregnant. Now I am nowhere near ready to have a baby but when I was 15 and those words were spoken to me my heart broke. If there is anything I want more in this world it's to be a mother. When I was a little girl and I was asked "What do you want to be when you grow up?" it was always a mom. I know that God has placed me on this earth to love his children and to be told that I may never have the chance to have children of my own was unbearable.
I do believe that God gives us the desires of our heart. He is the one who placed that desire in me to be a mom and I know that one day I will have a child of my own despite what the world and statistics have told me. But in the last few months God has been working on my heart and showing me that being a mom can come in more ways than one I received this card one night a young adult’s event with my church. We each picked a card and read aloud all the beautiful words and encouragement to the group. These cards are picked at random and the point is that the card you get is a message from God that shares encouragement and speaks life. Every card that everyone else got made me so emotional because it was so spot on. What they were reading was exactly who they were. I got mine and this is what it said.
If I'm being honest when I read this I was kind of annoyed.
I didn't understand it. Like I said before everyone else's was SPOT ON to who
they were and what they were doing. And this just didn't make sense to me. But
you know what sometimes God doesn't reveal what something is or what it means
until His timing. Weeks went by and I didn't even think twice about this card
or its meaning until I read a blog post that changed my life. Shay over at Mix and Match Family shared a post on her
friends foster to adopt story. Now before I read this I had thought about
adoption but never felt called to adopt. When I read this and then saw that
they would be doing a follow up post
I immediately wrote a sticky note to check back and read it. After reading
her follow up post my heart was pounding. I got online and read everything that
I could on fostering to adopt children. I still didn't really know why I was
doing this but I had the urge in my heart to.
Over
the next few days I kept researching, thinking about, and praying about
fostering to adopt. Then one morning while I was at work God said to me
"Look at that card from Young Adults" I honestly couldn't remember
where I put it. I got home found the card re read it and immediately started
crying. It said: "You have been handed a purpose to pursue
righteousness on behalf of those that are forgotten" 'The Lord has great
and mighty things He will work through you to free children from bondage"
" You are special and God trust's you to move forward with what is
right"
Immediately
I knew that fostering to adopt was something that I was put on this earth for.
That despite my fear and sense of being overwhelmed I knew that God wanted me
to do this one day. I will be a mother to my own children but I will also be a
mother to kids that need to see and feel God's love for them.
You see sometimes God's purpose and plan for our lives looks
NOTHING like we would expect or have ever thought of. I never in a million
years would think that one day I would foster to adopt. But God's plan is far
greater than anything I can ever imagine. I pray for this child or children
every day. I may not be ready to meet them yet but one day I will. For now God is
continuing to work in me and prepare me for this calling in life. I pray that
no matter where you are in life that you would feel God's love and know that
right now you may feel lost and uncertain of your purpose but God has something
special just for you and in His timing it will come to be.
Have the best day sweet friends
Krista
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